mrosec, I'm sorry you've lost interest in things that formerly brought you joy, and that you feel so hopeless. I want to remind you that there is hope. Nearly everyone who has suffered from depression recovers, faster if you seek treatment. That's not to say that the depression won't come back, but if it does it will only affect your life for a finite period of time.

You will feel better, soon I hope. Please don't isolate yourself; it will make things worse.