I hope things are getting better for you. I know how hard it can be. I had to make that choice at one point in my life and I choose family because I thought it was the right thing to do. Now that my kids are grown and I am divorced I wish I would have done what was best for me! I would not be in the bind I am in now. I was able to go back to work and take care of family after a while, but it takes time. Get yourself well first. How's that saying go? If mama ain't happy no one is! Sounds like it is time for some TLC for yourself. We are here for you. I wish you well.