I have to agree with Sad&Bipolar, take care of yourself first and then your kids. Wow you have quite a houseful. Kudos to you for balance that alone.

I went off sick in 2011 from an amazing job. Although it's still there waiting for me, realistically I'm not going to be able to return to that career. Which makes me very sad.
I actually don't even know when I'll get the ok to go back into the workforce, It doesn't look like anytime soon. My moods are just to unstable.

So here I am, 50 years old, divorced and 2 adult child with no career, not to mention trying to manage this disorder.

I'm having to learn to live in the moment which is not an easy task for me but is necessary. I've gotten this far, something will turn up.

So live for the moment, raise your babies and try and enjoy them as much as you can because I'm telling you, before you know it, they're grown up and gone.