I don't count calories but I do obsess about having a flat stomach. I know not all of me is fat, but honestly sometimes I kind of like looking this skinny. I don't eat much. I was supposed to be taking supplements but...I haven't and I guess mayybe just a tad of it was a fear of gaining weight. they want me up to 100 pounds. that scares me. i've never been 100 pounds. what if my stomach isn't flat? what if I don't like? I think "well if i don't like it I could diet and exercise.."no I couldn't, that would make me anorexic. *sigh* I feel like I have control over it because I just make myself eat when I need to; I don't count calories or exersice excessively. I just don't eat much cuz I'm lazy. but I'm losing my hair slowly. and it's thinning. people think I'm anorexic...I saw something online saying "you know you're anorexic when your triggered by people complimenting on your weight, when people get concerned about your weight loss, and when people don't notice your weight loss" and I'm like OMG that is exactly how I am!!!
I'm not malingering I swear. I'd never do that to everyone and I hate being sick. But I do like that look of concern in people's eyes. and i always feel like my problems don't matter. I've always had body image issues and then I met friends who had ED's and had hard lives and I was kind of tempted to think..maybe if I had an ED then my problems would matter...but I don't think thats the direct motivation..
So my question is, can you have an ED without realizing it, without excessively dieting or being over preoccupation with food or excessively exercising?
Honestly, this is all starting to be a little scary. And I just want to know I'm not crazy or a terrible, selfish person, whether I have an ED or not :P