I'm completely out there..I'm not manoc, or totally depressed, but I'm almost to the point not functioning right..I want to so bad. Today was the first day I've cried in three months. Since I've been on lithium. I don't know how to feel better. So I started drinking vodkas this us not helping. I just want to feel better. I am hating on my body.. I already have issues with this. I feel like poo about it since I've been on lithium. It's made me gain 10 lbs which is massive for. Me bc I am a zero and it affects my work. I am so depressed. I don't know what to do. I want to scream at the top of my lungs and break ****. No good. Ahhhhhhh! I look in the mirror and see a morbidly obese person. Told my doc this was a trigger. What bp med doesn't make you gain weight and break out for mania?! Nothing! I feel so hopeless!