I've been better. I'm in a mixed episode again and I'm totally frustrated. My psychosis is under control but my moods aren't. I hate it. I'm taking so many ****ing meds and my bipolar is still getting to ruin my life. I'm exhausted but I'm totally wired at the same time. My thoughts are racing so fast that I just can't type fast enough to keep up with the cacophony. It's immensely maddening. Honestly, if I had to pick between a mood episode or a psychotic episode I'd pick the psychosis. I know how to cope with the psychosis better. When I'm manic/mixed/depressed I feel so out of control. It's ugh, I don't even have words. All my words are running through my brain so fast I can't pick them out and actually write them out. ****.