I posted this story over on the "relationships" board but I thought it might be appropriate here too. I'm feeling very alone and just wanted to reach out and see if maybe anyone here would be willing to offer advice/a listening ear.

I've been with my boyfriend almost a year - I know, not long - but I thought he was the one. We have discussed a future together, marriage, kids, etc. I thought we were very compatible except for a few minor things - but you can't be exactly alike, that's boring (not to mention kinda weird).

Anyway, he'd been on Paxil (10 mg) for anxiety and insomnia for about six months when he decided to go off of it cold turkey. That was two weeks ago. He said it made him feel emotionally numb and apathetic about everything.

He'd been acting really distant and not like himself for the two weeks prior to going off the meds. But in the two weeks since, he's a totally different person. He won't respond when I say I love him. He says he just wants to always be alone because it's the only time he doesn't worry. That being around me and my son is stressful. That being in my house is stressful. After a couple of long talks, I came to the conclusion that the best thing I can do for him is remove the pressure of me being in his life. I told him to let me know if I could do anything and to just get better. I gave him the number of a counselor I like. I made him promise to call his doctor Monday.

That was Friday night. I haven't heard from him since, I'm not surprised by that. But I'm totally heartbroken. I had to force myself to eat last night after a day and half of no appetite. I can barely get out of bed. Can't stop crying. I miss him so much. I'm so sad for him. So worried about him. I think the worse part is that he won't say he loves me. I've been trying to convince myself that it's not because he doesn't love me, but because his head is just so messed up right now that he can't express it or feel it in the normal way. But I really don't believe myself and just can't stop thinking he doesn't love me anymore. That he just stopped for some reason. Went from him telling me I was the most amazing person he'd ever met to just... not loving me anymore. In about a month's time.

The other part of this saga is that he heard a rumor that he may be being transferred to the other side of the state in August. He's had some money problems lately so he wants to accept (he doesn't have to) because it would come with a raise. So he would basically choose money/career over me. So that's probably the second most painful thing for me. Right after him not loving me - that I'm worth something less than $20k to him. And it makes me pretty hopeless - even if he does somehow get his anxiety under control and start acting normal again, he may be gone in two months anyway.