thank you tymber for knowing me enough to state the obvious. i did not post so that anyone could feel sorry for me or be on my side because i am "so dependent" on others. i posted because i wanted to vent. i didn't pm the people involved because i made a promise to a particular individual that i would not do that. quite frankly, meaning no offense to anyone, i don't care how any perceives me, what i post, who i am etc. the most important opinion is that one that i have about myself because that opinion is the one that comes first on the list. then comes that of my children, husband, and family. apart from that i could care less about anyone elses opinion. i am sorry to those who have misinterpreted this posting. it is like all others i have posted. one just to release something that is on my mind and move forward. it is not affecting me so much that i need to speak to go to a mod or admin about it. geeze that's extreme. as far as i am concerned this is over for me. now anyone can continue posting in response if they want but on my part this is over for me. thanks to everyone who has voiced their opinion.

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