thank you so much. Yeah i'm sorry about that, I thought of not mentioning calories but didn't think about weight and height. is it weird to almost want to have an ED? Idk why..I just want to feel like I have a problem that actually matters..a psychologist and nutritionist evaluated me. they said they dont think I have an ED because I don't count calories but they told my mum to keep a very close eye on me cause I'm at very high risk. Don't worry, I'll talk about it to my therapist, I promise. We are really close and I tell her basically everything! I'll try to remember to update you, hopefully I will. I'm sorry to hear that! Yeah I know I really want to have kids
I still have my cycle. the nurse was really surprised about that. I try to be like "ok I have to gain weight" but I've always had a hard time gaining weight as it is...I just never get around to eating enough. I told one counseler I didn't had an ED cause I could control it. he said that's the main part of it. but in my case its control as I can force myself to eat, not I can force myself not to eat...I'm kind of confused about what I'm feeling and thinking! thanks again for your reply. stay strong and keep fighting <3
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Originally Posted by waggiedog
  
Hello and good evening, as it is here in London, UK. OK awesomeness, straight to the point ~ you do infact have the signs of a typical ED I'm afraid hunny. This is a gentle reminder because I don't want someone to pull you up (I already KNOW you are sensitive like myself) we shouldn't really mention weights and numbers incase it triggers others. I see there is already a ''trigger'' warning so we'll carry on now. I'm shorter than you but I weigh more. I'm guessing you are very young, well, I'm very old!!!!! LOL LOL!!! You say all the things that I have said, and do still say, or at least I think it all the time. I DO have an ED and I've suffered ALL of the ED's over the last 30 plus years, I still do. ED's are not always about low weight/calories. Today we now have ED's which supposedly revolve around total ''health food'' which eliminate various food groups, I believe it's called ''Orthorexia''. However, I feel you already have an unhealthy attitude to food and how eating in general makes you feel. I'm very concerned that your hair is starting to suffer, hair and nails go together in suffering when depleted of nutrients. I urge you to seek help, though I know you won't want to do this. I understand why you secretly like the comments of concern from people (so did I) but you are possibily damaging your body, like I have. My ED meant I couldn't have children. Please darling, don't ever think you are crazy, selfish, mad or whatever, you are NONE of those things. Please let me know how you are doing. HUGS. |