(((((((Jane))))))

I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling so much right now. But I think you know yourself the best, and as such, you are really the best person to answer your question. What is your gut saying? If going to the hospital is something that you think would help you right now, and that there is no other way for you to get that help, then I think you have your answer. On the other hand, if you don't want to go back, are there any other resources that you haven't already tried that you could?

Keep us posted, and in the meantime, try to take good care of yourself.