NO IT'S NOT!!!!!!!

Sorry to yell, but please please please don't let the illness take over. I know all too well the despair you are feeling, and I know how it feels not to be able to see a future, but there is one out there, if you don't give up.

When I was about 19, I was driving back to college with my dad and I hit a patch of black ice on a highway. The car started fishtailing wildly back and forth...as soon as I corrected the spin one way, it would just spin the other way. And since I was going about sixty when I hit the ice, the car just kept going and going and going. I was so scared, and it seemed like it would never end...all I wanted to do was stop trying, just let the car slide off the road. But my dad just kept saying "Keep it up, you're doing good..." So I steered and steered, and every time the car spun, I would correct back the other way. And eventually, after what seemed like an hour, the car slowed and stopped, and we were ok.

It may seem like things are spinning out of control right now, and that nothing you are doing will ever help, will ever change things. But don't give up...let us be the ones beside you, encouraging you to keep it up. And I know that the spinning will slow down, and eventually stop, and you can get back on the road of life again.

*hugs*
mj

<font color=green> If she spins fast enough then maybe the broken pieces of her heart will stay together, but even a gyroscope can't spin forever</font color=green>