I dreamed since I was a little kid of being a marine biologist, then it changed to bio chemist, I wanted to find the cure for cancer or depression or some big thing. I dropped out of college and ended up a plumber. Now being a plumber is a very respectable trade and I could earn a living but it was the farthest thing ever from my mind when I was 20 years old. Never really achieved any of my dreams. Alcoholism, addiction, depression, anxiety, and all that bull **** robbed me of my dreams i feel. I am 50 now and have accepted it. it is the hand life dealt me and I have had to learn to embrace and accept the way things are. Very far from my ideal. Even the ideal i had 10 years ago. Judging by the diagnosis in your sig you are dealing with a lot and those things do rob us.