Welcome to PC!

Well good heavens, Moonkin! How can somebody get better or feel hopeful when their treatment keeps changing! I'm sorry you have been through so much.

Friends and family don't have the education, training, and skills to help even though they try to understand and they do care about you. I'm thinking that if the meds were going to work for you they would have by now, although maybe they've been changed too soon and too often.

I think it would be helpful for you to get more therapy. Can you find a therapist that you can commit to for as long as it takes this time, and who can commit to you too?

You can read about therapy in the psychotherapy forum here and another site I like for information about therapy is www.guidetopsychology.com--it has a great Question & Answer section, imo.

Glad you are here and hope you'll keep posting!