That is troubling that you have bounced here and there. I wonder if I read this correctly, in the year you saw the psychiatrist you tried more than 5 antidepressants? I wonder, unless you had allergic reactions, why you didn't try them for a longer period of time? I'm not a medical doctor but it takes many months to even get a med up to a good dose before you can begin to see if it will help, and it seems your doctor didn't even get that done, am I right?

What that does is make it seem hopeless. I'm glad you're trying welbutrin again, and though it does take time, try and not end it or anything... but bear with time and see if it helps.

You keep having to quit your therapists, is that because they or you keep moving? A year doesn't seem like very long with a family dynamic history of depression as a coping mechanism... or is it medical? As you can see I'm not sure really what all is happening for you... even though you feel you wrote a book... come back and write another chapter, ok?

TC