"I defriend both of you! Thats not how this works!" (I do love that commercial where the old lady posts her vacation pictures to her living room wall!)

But somehow when the same subject comes up for me and my t, we are not in the same old argument about it - somehow some work has been accomplished and we are in a different space. Even every time i ask him to marry me, its a different ( tho still negative outcome ) conversation. But its not so much about the outcome as it is about WHY im asking now. There is always a different reason. Or am i just full of excuses, as my mother was? Ha, no wonder my therapy is a neverending story. Thats not good.