My mom has borderline PD and takes no responsibility for her actions. While she admits to being sensitive, she does not see that her emotions may come across as over the top to others. I give you a lot of credit for recognizing the issues you struggle with. Like those above, I don't think you are as terrible or horrible as you see yourself. Even though my mom hurt me quite a bit, I have a lot of compassion for what she and you go through; I know there is a lot of emotional pain and dysregulation (I don't think you want to be run over by your emotions).