I'm not normally like this but I've been sitting in my house crying for the past 1.5 hours.. I thought I would feel better once school was out but since then I've been feeling worse.

I woke up at 4:30 pm today because I never sleep at night anymore..I've been binge eating and throwing up once or twice a day and always feel awful. It's not good because I purposely avoid people so I'm always alone. I can't stand being around others because it seems like they don't understand what I feel like, and talking or smiling is painful. I haven't had friends in years and all of my time is occupied with my toxic behavior.

I just feel really lost and don't know what to do anymore..and don't have anyone to talk to. I wish I could find a way to get out of this