I'm glad you posted that really helps a lot. I do think I'm being triggered but I haven't been able to figure out what it is. Your right I'm not hurting myself, I guess there are worse ways I could cope. I would do it more often but I just feel really silly needing to hide. I wanted to set up a more permanent space but I don't want to have to explain it to someone. I guess I need to take care of myself better but it's hard to do. I couldn't without raising questions when I was a kid so I still just try to contain everything in my head and appear fine on the outside.