My new meds seem to want me to wake up about 7.30am. Once awake I stay awake, they don't work so well at the other end of the day, I lie awake craving the release that only sleep can bring.

Yesterday I stared at my meds for about half an hour wondering whether to take them. Not because they have bad side effects or any of the usual reasons, I just kept thinking drugs are for sick people they can't make me better cos I'm not sick. I feel so certain that this depression is not an illness, that there will be no recovery.