Hi All
I have a recurrent dream of my husband abandoning me. I dream that he just leaves with no explanation or note or anything. He is just gone and I cannot reach him by phone or through anyone we know. I always get to a point in the dream where I look down at my wedding rings and realise that I will have to take them off at some point and move on with my life without him. This is usually the point where I wake up crying in my sleep.
I've had these dreams for quite a while (ever since we got married 3 years ago), but what is strange is that now they also include other past relationships. Where a man I dated before is now my husband and has abandoned me.
Just a bit of context: My husband and I are having problems conceiving because of sperm quality issues. Last year in November we managed to actually get pregnant (after 2 years of trying) but we lost the baby at 8 weeks. I have been very depressed because of it and I feel as though my life has no meaning anymore. I have been searching for a way to deal with the loss but I just can't seem to move past it. Just as I think I'm ok and can move forward something happens and I break down again. I sometimes spend days just crying and at these times I don't know if I can go on living anymore. I don't know if this has something to do with the dreams or not. Just thought I should put it in there.
What does it all mean?