Hey all,

I'm currently on counselling and my counsellor set some goals for me to accomplish by the end of last month. And one of the goals was that I have to self harm on covered areas, for example, thighs and upper arms ( I wear clothes with sleeves all the time) and not areas which are more exposed, such as forearms and wrists. I already have scars on my forearms and they are all fading because I'm not allowed to cut my forearms. But, I feel terribly lost without them. I feel compelled to cut my forearms and seeing the scars fading on my forearms really drives me insane too. I don't know why.

I'm seeing my counsellor probably on the 16th of June. And the last time I saw her was on the 22nd last month. I don't know if I can go without cutting my forearms until I see on the 16th this month. The last time when I saw her, I told her I was still cutting my forearms and I feel compelled to do so, because the scars are fading. She seemed mad and I really don't want to upset her the next time when I see her, by telling her that I'm still self harming on exposed areas. But I find it hard not to and there are times where I feel like if I keep seeing those scars on my forearms fading, I will literally cut my forearms in a million pieces...I hope I don't sound insane to all of you reading this thread. :/

Any advice on this? Thanks for any help given.

Xoxo,
Grace