Wanting to live close to family is pretty normal. If you don't feel complete without them being close then find a way to fix it. If you can't move back try to call them on a regular basis. Skype or Tango them so that your son can see their faces and hear their voices, include them in your day to day life so that they wont feel so far away. A good job that will give you the financial ability to live where you want will open up eventually, but until then you have to resign yourself to where you are at now. Things can always change. If this is your dream then your wife will probably understand. We all struggle with our path in life, feeling as if we should be doing this or regretting our past decisions. It is our strength in these trying situations that defines us. You will find your way back home if that is where you are meant to be.