That's what I'm afraid of - that I'll never feel safe again. I wish all these feelings would go away and I'd feel like I did before. I just want that feeling again of security and happiness. Everything is so scary now. Your situation is scary, too - I understand. It's like your life depends on the money you have. I keep thinking back to the days before electricity and so many bills and how nice that would be. Now we have to pay for these luxuries, but it's so hard. We live among a group of Amish people, and they don't have these worries. How much simpler they live, and I'll bet they don't even know what stress like this is like. I don't work either but have been thinking of something part-time in the fall when my son goes back to school. I'm in a rural area, though, and there's just not much to work at unless you drive far away, which I can't do. A little extra money would help bring in a little more security at least.