Yeah. Reading my post now, it kinda might seem that I'm "normally" second guessing and evaluating a relationship. Who knows maybe I am! Still what originally made me wonder if there is anything unusual about this, is the level of anxiety, the rapid shifting of my moods and thoughts and the fact that this has in some form happened to me in every single one of my relationships. This is now my fourth longer one.

And as I said before: One of the biggest questions that makes this simple thing (ok relationships aren't really that simple but you get the point) a huge deal for me is that I don't know if all my problems are because I just haven't met a person that doesn't cause this stirring in me, or if I just suffer from some sort of anxiety that always comes, regardless of who I'm dealing with. I've always thought of this but just lately the question has grown to be like a huge obstacle in my life, because of which I'm incapable of making any long lasting decisions. I'd feel like an idiot if I left this kind of person only to one day meet the same anxiety with another girl, yet I sometimes dread making any bigger expressions of affection to my partner because there is the possibility that we aren't right for each other for some reason and she'll be hurting even more if that one day turns out to be the case. So I just keep hanging on and hope that one day some lightning of wisdom hits my head or something..