This is a good place to discuss things that you can't "talk" about ... somewhat like a proving ground or test place. Please don't feel like you should just be able to "snap out of it"...if depression cure was that simple, I think all of us would have snapped out of it a long time ago; I know that I would have. So, best to you. BTW, I try, with futility, to explain my struggle to my wife with varying degrees of success.