I hate to sound stupid but I don't understand why so many people feel guilt. I know I have guilt over what happened in my life but I had no guilt for how I acted. Now granted, I never went in a psych ward. I was on the outside fantasizing about it and couldn't wait for my time. That's messed up but I don't feel guilty for that. Is it because I didn't break down? would I be worse off if I had of? Its a bit confusing to me because it's no better from this side. On this side of the fence~ I maintained stability but I'm a lot older now and I'm going back to get my break. I do not look forward to a psych ward and I would consider it ultimate act of betrayal on my therapist part because I've been stable too long to end up there.

I guess I don't expect anyone to really have the answer. I just want to say that dealing with it now might have been the best thing in the world for you. I had stability but only because I got lucky and was able to create an environment that works for me. There was nothing I could do then but now that I can, I see the monkey breaking my back.