Thanks a lot Travelinglady, there is so much relief when your truth is acknowledged. Feeling of this unhealthy familial heritage of parenthood isolates me. They are pretty religious, and that is the only source of their parenting skills. According to that, you are able to leave this house, get help and common sense only when you get pregnant, cause you'll be in trouble. They would be very jealous if you move out, earn your living and live calm until you thoughtfully find a relationship. I see when we got into fight, that they are aware of the truth, but they see their failures and shut them-self down with any helpful thoughts and suggestions.
I guess I'll need to find peace in that somewhere...
Thanks again