I'm really sorry that you feel so awful and empty, pisces22. Crying is a way of releasing emotions of sadness, and it's actually a very good thing to release those emotions. I wish I could tell you everything will be okay. The good news is you're still here, and that means you're fighting the depression because you're still alive. I agree with gayleggg that seeing a doctor and/or therapist about your feelings should help you. Keep posting on PsychCentral forums because—to quote the wise words of John Grohol—actively participating in online support groups should make you feel better.