I have a small drama.

I am sort of seeing my ex - the one in another city, I see him every 2 weeks or so as each of us travel for work.

It's been easy, it's not completely serious, but I do still have a lot of feelings for him. And we have mooted the idea of moving overseas together, etc.

So over the weekend I bumped into a friend on MSN who has just got back from a couple months kickboxing (yea ok it's the guy in the health food guru thread of mine).

We never went out but I think it's safe to say we considered hooking up - dunno really why we didn't. I think he was sort of seeing someone, maybe I was too.

So we had both got home from being out at some wack time of the morning and the conversation got kinda ummm saucy ... and a little drunken-fuelled ... I don't know why I didn't just cab over to his house but I don't think I ever really thought of that. I was having an interesting time though :>

So anyway he has just brought it up again (dead sober on a Monday night).

I don't really know whether to chase it or not ... he works in advertising, cut bod, he's intelligent, funny, dresses absolutely beautifully.

We like a lot of the same stz ... down to the same 1971 Buick Riviera ...

He is the only guy I know as comfortable giving me clothes advice or taking me shopping as he is away in the bush hunting with the boys for the weekend.

Sigh ... I don't know if I'm in the right head space to pursue it ...

Something is clicking in my head about a conversation about three years ago ... his sister or friend is bipolar and he has had a lot of issues with her being pretty out of wack ... I could not tell him about my d-word as a result. I remember he used to get very very upset about it ... I think he was put in situations.

I really don't know what to do.

I know coffees and drinks are good starts ... I just don't want to start something I am not sure if I could ever finish.

It's no biggie just something else to think about ... I don't think I'd be a very good 'proper girlfriend' right now. SIgh.