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Originally Posted by Hellion
I end up feeling the need to hide too even when there is no threat, I know its the mind being hyper-vigilant and body being prepared for whatever unseen threat, but that knowledge doesn't make it go away or any less severe. Before I dropped out of college I spent a lot of time before and between classes hiding in the bathroom like locking myself in a stall and just sitting there till I felt a bit safer...my trauma was at a highschool and college campuses remind me of that environment so it triggers my symptoms.
I certainly don't see that kind of thing as 'coping like a kid' I mean think about if someone actually was in danger or knew of a present threat...they probably would be hiding/running/getting ready to fight adult or child...so you're just reacting to body/mind signals telling you you're in danger when you're not its not much different than what people do if they are actually unsafe or have reason to believe they are. I feel like that comment reflects maybe you feel some shame/embarrassment about it...and I struggle with that to I always feel so embarrassed and pathetic whenever that happens even though I know I shouldn't be ashamed of something that's not even my fault.
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I'm sorry high school was traumatic. I did the same in college. I would hide out in the bathroom or a hallway no one used between classes too.
I definitely feel embarrassed and pathetic for wanting/needing to hide in my own house when I live alone. I struggle between finding it really helpful and comforting and beating myself up about it. I am ashamed that I react that way. I can't wrap my head around why. I'm not panicked or afraid at the time I just have this overwhelming need to feel secure and I guess I don't know how to fill that need.