Just wanted to say, I read that some triggers are subconscious (smells, the way the light looks, sounds, etc) so we can't know every source; maybe we'll never figure out all of them.

You sound like you are taking good care of yourself, respecting your feelings. Know what you mean, about "...[trying] to contain everything in [your] head..." I sometimes feel like I "emotionally vomit" [think: exorcist levels of spewing] and I try to keep a cool, detached facade when I feel overwhelmed with emotions. My therapist says this might be part of my problem, I'm trying to stuff feelings rather than acknowledging them and consciously deciding how to deal with them. Ah, well - baby steps....

Take care - glad you posted! - Bolivar