I'm really sorry for all you suffered through.

I read through the info you cited and I was like whaaa who wrote that?? None of those are meee... lol

Buut I do know psychiatric info is being updated all the time so maybe that's all the data they had back then.

I will say this though, my pdoc and therapist were both surprized I WANTED help for my BPD... So atleast that part isn't outdated

Again, I'm really sorry for how you've suffered, but I think its good that you found out you can't hurt your mom or any representation of her. It speaks volumes about your character, its really something to be proud of.

I'm pretty sure I would've demolished it in your shoes