I do not have any other appointments scheduled right now with current T. I cancelled by email for this week, and he is going to be out of town the week after that. Typically we schedule only a week at a time, so I will have to call or email to make another appointment if I want one. I am still undecided. There is a huge relief in the thought of starting over with someone in whom I do not have an emotional investment. AND the thought of not seeing current T again ever is painful, and leaving without at least talking to him one more time feels ungrateful. I know he is a paid professional and he was only doing his job, but he did help me tremendously and I am not sure I will feel good about myself if I do not actually thank him and give him the courtesy of telling him in person that I am discontinuing.