i'm laughing when i'm reading this. not laughing AT you but seeing so much of myself in what you have said that i'm kinda laughing out of relief. because it is NOT okay that i feel needy and dependent, but it is perfectly normal and fine and acceptable to me that you do, you see. :-) that probably doesn't make so very much sense...

i have heard... (i hope people don't mind how often i do this but i tend to remember stuff that i found helpful) i have heard... that while there is quite a bit of stuff out there on how therapists should cope with panicky feelings when their clients become attached / needy / dependent... i have heard that that is not at all the typical response to a client becoming attached / needy / dependent. i've heard that the typical response is nurturing and protective feelings and also feeling flattered that one is needed (even though there can be a rational awareness that the feelings aren't exactly about them it is still true that they have facilitated it by earning your trust and it feels GOOD to be liked and loved).

i did wonder if your therapist was trying to give you the opportunity to ask directly for more frequent sessions. i'm glad that he mentioned it himself, though. i guess he understands that you find it hard to feel needy / dependent. i really struggle with that too. felt that way about my dad and then he left :-( so it is scary to feel that way.

it is great that you can talk about this with him, though.

with respect to your schedule changing... it might be the case that it is possible to figure out an alternative time if you do indeed want to stay with more frequent sessions. i'll be interested to know how more frequent sessions helps with respect to intensity. i'm on a once per week and once extra per fortnight system. a comprimise between twice weekly and once weekly. i've only had that extra session once though because the other time he was sick. and he is going to have 3 weeks off after this week. i guess i'll see how it goes after that. in the meantime... we will see how much i can communicate via email :-)