OD'd last week, made a fool of myself in front of my friend who took me to the hospital, and in front of my T and pdoc two days later (still in haze from meds). Saw T today and told her how I've been super anxious and classically depressed (as opposed to my pervasive and more generalized depression). She told me that I should stop thinking about it and just try and live in the present.

THE PRESENT SUCKS.

What do I do I have no more anxiety meds because I took them all

I want to curl up in a ball and just sleep until I feel better. But I can't. too many responsibilities. And I have a huge meeting tomorrow that I have to lead...

I'm sorry.

this post is useless. Just like how i feel