I'm smiling, no psychical signs of depressed. I'm laughing, I appear normal.

Inside I feel heavy tears I hold back with every blink, Bad thoughts, I feel tired, everything seems so pointless, I could go on.

I'll smile in my next session, she'll write in her notes I'm doing much better.

or should I make my physical appearance a lie?

I see these mental health professionals as judges, they examine and cast judgement.

I am not psychotic, I am very aware of what is real.