ok so.....i went to see T. it went well. he was happy to see me. first we talked about how i am sleeping and i said i was sleeping better since being off the Abilify but its really hard to get up in the morning so i decided to take 100mg seroquel at noon and then 200mg at night. see if that helps the sedation in the AM. then we talked about my anxiety and some things about anxiety at work. i thought it was paranoia but he said it was more like social anxiety. which i think is true because it wasnt as bad as paranoia. we talked about my goal to not hear voices for a whole month and being more proactive in taking care of myself and taking PRNS when i think they might be coming back. then he called the disability lady at my school. he wants to see if she will give me a medical incomplete for the sociology course i took that i failed. she didnt answer again so they are playing phone tag. we tried to email her but my dumb school doesnt have anyones email address on their website. i asked T how he deals with anticipatory anxiety and he gave me some good tips which i kind of already knew and was using to cope. then he made me some more copies out of the paranoia book he got. he hugged me and told me he was so proud of me and that im doing really well. so that made me happy. yay T!!!!!!

then i went to work and it was ok but i didnt feel that good. and i thought that this young coworker that was working as a cashier too was doing things specifically to make me mad or feel bad but i didnt know if that was just in my head or not. anyway so i had a pretty good day, i was really glad i saw T and he was happy and the session went well. im off tomorrow and im gonna see pdoc with T at 10:30am and try to get on Metformin. then i have to meet with my recovery coach and do a bunch of things involving my trust. then im gonna hang out with my friend. so it should be a pretty good day. im tired and my neck hurts.