Sometimes everything seems and feels so right. Other times everything feels wrong. I don't know.

We are 19 years apart. I don't know if my parents would approve. Of course I'm an adult, so really it shouldn't matter. He doesn't want to get married. We please each other without having intercourse. We bring out the best in each other. Sometimes I wonder, if this is all there is.

I grew up believing marriage and then sex. But if you connect with someone and they don't want to get married, but you feel so free with them? Is that so wrong?

And now, I feel like I made a mistake ever becoming friends and having a relationship with this person. And what happens if I end things? If I end it this time, its over, and no more texting etc.

And yet, I feel so right when I am with him. I feel so ok. Like things are good. Like I'm good. Things I don't believe when I'm on my own. Why would I want to end things when he opens the world for me? I never thought I'd feel the way I do when I'm with him.

I'm so confused. Is this right or wrong? Is it meant to be? Maybe it is time to live and move on. Was I a fool?

I am just confused. That's all.

I over-analyze things and he lives in the moment.