it's been a long time since i've posted... got a good grasp on my ocd and kept it for a while. but it's been kind of killing me the last few months and i'm seeing everything fall apart all the time. busted my butt, got promoted at work a few weeks ago, already obsessing and thinking i'm going to lose my job/apartment/life any day. have been out of t and off meds for several years and i thought i had the whole thing beat. there really is no cure though, gotta stay vigilant i guess. how do i kill these thoughts? i worked so hard for the things i have now and i can't enjoy them. fcking thoughts come up with everything i do.

p.s. not sure i'm looking for advice as much as commiseration and empathy. family doesn't really get it so i don't have much of an outlet.