Im not getting anything but xanax and medical pot.my doctors are more stupid than i am and do no follow ups(even when i bugged)and dont go over any test results ever done.i taught myself over 3yrs of what i know from what little bits of records i have been able to get and rage doesnt come close!they have conditions i never have had and do not like convulsions(never had 1)epilepsy(wrong again)and wrecklassly tossed so many pills down me it perminately damaged my stomach lining so i cant eat half of the foods i once could.i lost count years ago how many different pcp ive tried.so now i play pretend and all the other meds that made me even worse yet kept getting pushed,i pick up so it appears as if im taking them but im flushing em down the toilet.i have tried every over the counter pain reliever,vitamines,all the "home remedies" over the past 2-3yrs and zip-nothing.i only steadily and progressivly got worse with more symptoms adding along the way.im dying from something but no one really cared but me.though i dont now.now i when able look up death insurance to pay my cremation costs,various medical directives,will,etc.i fought a damn good battle but lost the war.but im ok with it.im ready to go.made peace with that many years ago.death i have never,even as a child feared at all.no reason to.ive just known that when it would be time,id just know.its not here yet but i feel its close enough id better get organized and for me that can take years.but i seriously doubt ill see 41.which is cool with me.