if you are happy and he brings out the best in you, what is so bad about it? the only thing that sounds to be holding you up is marriage. can you get over the idea of not being married? that is what you have to look at it seems. can you be truly happy without being married? if not, then it is time to move on. if you can let go of the idea of being married then by all means you can move forward in the relationship. think hard on this. take care,