I have to say I rely heavily on my faith. It is not a religious faith at all. It is a set of beliefs of my own that have evolved over time by doing a lot of reading on all kinds of new age spiritual stuff and even philosophy by religious scholars. It is much more based of lack of understanding than on understanding. I truly believe there is so much more to this universe than humans are able to perceive. Our perception is so limited. I truly believe that my personality will continue to exist after I die. I don't know why I just sense that it is true. I have had some personal experiences that I couldn't possibly explain that have led to a lot of faith.

What gets me is the total contrast between being connected with nature and the universe and this power I don't understand when I am doing really good and the total lack of connection when in a depression. That part of me, the sixth sense or whatever, is cut off by depression. I have to draw on my intellectual understanding of the times when I did feel connected.