I'm sorry that you feel so down. Yes, writing on social support sites does help, according to John Grohol. Receiving support and compassion from fellow sufferers of depression should help you walk the road of healing.
Depression does make one feel all alone, without a friend or acquaintance in the world. It's a horrible feeling that I can relate to. The good news is that PsychCentral is full of caring and understanding people who can relate to your suffering. It is good that you have expressed your feelings on this site.
Guilt is a common symptom of depression that can lead to insecurity and refusal to seek help. It's one of the worst emotions anybody can feel, in my opinion. I can also relate to your feelings of guilt; I too think it's all my own fault I'm stuck in the place I am. Try to remember that guilt is like a negative voice inside your head, trying to get you down, and don't listen to it.
I'm sorry that your wife doesn't understand how you feel. It just goes to show how large the stigma associated with mental illness really is. The next time she tells you to get over it, try asking her "If I had cancer or a cardiovascular disease, would you tell me to get over that?"
I hope you get the help you need and find inner peace. Good luck.
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