I understand, but my fear right now is more of being left totally alone after all my family has died and not being able to care for myself rather than death. My parents are old, my husband is older than I am, my sister is 10 years older and has COPD, nephews far away living their own lives, my son has Asperger's and I'm afraid may not mentally be able to help me out when I'm older. That's all I have, and I fear them all passing away before me (but my son and nephews) and just being alone and ending up homeless or something. It's hard to live life with worries like ours and enjoy it. I really have no advice. Just wanted to let you know I understand. I know when we don't feel like our usual selves it can get us anxious, too, and make things worse. You said you've been feeling this way for a few weeks. I've been dealing with mine for 6 months, and it bothers me that I'm not the person I used to be 6 months ago. I used to be so happy, carefree, silly, playful... Now it's all gone. I have reasons I've changed that are completely understandable (our fire, losses, etc.) but I just want that person back I used to be and keep wondering if she'll ever be back again. That tends to make me even more anxious. That could be making you feel worse, too.