So, today I am having doubts about my dx.

Not sure why...I just sometimes don't believe my diagnosis as BP2.

Maybe it's because I don't generally have problems sleeping (sometimes I don't sleep well, but I chalk that up to caffeine or sugar).

Maybe it's because I don't go crazy spending money (sometimes I do go through periods of impulse spending...but we all buy things we don't need).

Maybe it's because I don't get really hypersexual (something I do get horny at inappropriate times, but don't we all?).

But I can't say that I don't fly from one idea to the next (was doing that last night very much).

But I can't say that I don't have very hyperactive moments (I go through periods of extreme hyperactivity).

But I can't say I don't get anxious and irritable (I do often...sometimes even the touch of loved ones makes me edgey -- which really sucks).

But I can't say I don't get depressed (I just recently broke free from a 3 month long depression, which I think I might be battling still....)

So, I am conflicted -- I thought I had accepted my dx, but I still try to find reasons/signs/things that make me not BP2.

Guh -- just sorta tired lately...like my sleep is doing nothing for me...been that way for a week or two...where I wake up feeling like I didn't sleep at all...but I can function at work just fine...outwardly (except for bags under my eyes) no one can tell I get 4/5 hours of sleep on a general night.

I have always only ever really gotten 6 at most...which I always felt was normal (for me), but most people get at 7 from what I understand...me...6-5 is good...but with all the waking up and fitfulness I have been having lately, I probably only really get 4 hours a night.

Hypo episode? Who knows....feeling anxious lately? Yeah...muscle tension -- sense that I am forgetting something....like I should be doing something and I can't quite figure out what that is...

ramble ramble ramble....

Thanks for reading....