I have been going to my therapist off and on for the past several years for various issues: parents, spouse, kids, etc. I've never gone to more than 4 sessions at a time and they were more about how to solve a problem.

My mom passed away a few weeks ago after a 5 week illness of stage IV lung cancer that spread to her liver. Due to 17 years of drug/alcohol dependence and controlling behavior, we were never really close. I haven't cried much at all and was not allowed to cry when I was younger. I would be sent to my room.

I've been going to my T for the longest period of time (6 sessions) and she has been fantastic. She has texted me and used phrases such as "I'm always here for you", "I know what you're going through" and called me on the Sunday my mom passed away. She also cried when I shared something about my mom saying her mom is the same way. While this was all comforting, it has made me want to see her more than in the past. In a wierd way, I don't want to be close to her because I don't want to WANT to go see her just from an emotional side.
Part of me wants to tell her all of this, but ironically I don't completely want the sweetness to stop. Thoughts?