My Support Forums - View Single Post - Should I just cut everyone off? Stop talking and start over?

nonightowl · Jun 10, 2014, 12:29 PM

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Originally Posted by FatPenguin

I don't feel like my friendship and relationship with others is really valued by anyone.

Not my family.

Not really my friends, except for one of them.

Not my past "girlfriend" who put me in the friendzone forever and still wants to be friends, but it still seems like I'm the one who talks to her and can't stop talking to her.

I just want to leave, not even say goodbye, and vanish.

I'm always online, always talking, and I feel like I'm the one who does most of the initiation.

I'm just done.

I want to move somewhere I like and life over. Anyone else feel this way?

Like you got stuck with a certain lot of people who don't give a crap about you, when maybe if you have grown up somewhere else, you might have ended up around better people?

These people don't value me. Maybe my energy could be invested better elsewhere. I'm in Arizona, btw, a state I can't stand. Maybe there are better places to live, with better people.

Your post could have written by ME.

I often wonder if I was born somewhere else, or raised somewhere else (like another COUNTRY) if my life would have been better. I know that's a BIG "if", but still.....

I've posted about the subject of so-called "friends" in some other threads. Except for one person (who unfortunately is now thousands of miles from me, due to job loss), I feel I have no friends. My other "friend" keep telling me she's too "busy" for me. I no longer intend to try to initiate communication with her anymore.

If I ever hear from her, I don't know if I'll pick up. Let the machine get it, and see what her "excuse" is that she has all this time and energy for who knows what, but she can't find 10 minutes in one bloody month to talk to me. We are both getting older, and that's even more of a reason to stay in touch. Also, I live alone.

Also, I've had to join two senior organizations so I can get SOME help or support, even in only practical things. It's better than nothing. I'm hoping to make a new friend. Even just one will do wonders.

I started in a support group that meets weekly too. I've only gone twice, but I intend to finish it and see how it goes. People who have support networks in their life don't need to do all this. It's painful and exhausting. I'm always running around like a chicken with no head, looking to connect with a kindred spirit. I feel the world is a harsh place, and I had an epiphany (sp?) that support is as important as food, shelter, etc.

My family is emotionally distant and nobody calls ME. I hate having to do all the initiating.

I've blown off people in the past. I used to talk to some former co-workers who said "Let's keep in touch." Thing is, I had to always call them. I got fed up, and I stopped calling. Lo and behold, they never called me in spite of that. Good riddance, as I never missed them.

I often feel people are so shallow. It reminds me of the lyrics from a song I like, "Games People Play."------"Never meaning what they say, and never saying what they mean."