To me it sounds like you may need a med adjustment. I actually have been diagnosed with bpd and bipolar 1. I havent found a mood stabilizer or AP that works continuously for me. I tolerated geodon well but ended up cycling on it as well. Im going to a new place for t and pdoc soon and am hoping this doc will listen to me and work with me to find a med that will give me atleast more time in between cycling without losing my personality or emotions or gaining a ton of weight. This is 6 years I have been dealing with this and I have yet to quit cycling every couple of months. My last manic episode put me over the edge and im terrified of having another one bc I completely destroy my life and everyone in it everytime. I honestly am scared of my own mind and things it makes me do and I cant stop it I dont even realize what ive done until its over and im left to deal with the aftermath and I try to rebuild but its getting to feel pointless now. Im here if u ever want to send me a pm.

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