Doglover (btw love the nickname ) thank you for your support...

You are right, even if you have a flu or something you need time to get well soon. This has been going on in my case for about two years now, and I am really shocked and tired of everything. I am not bipolar but cyclothimic though and they said this "illness" of mine is easier to treat.

I am noticing I have more hypomanic episodes about which nobody really knows...I often feel like I'm really great and thinking about other guys etc., you know how it goes. And in all that I feel nothing towards my BF and my family, total numbness and I hate the feeling since they were and still are the one that help me the most.

I do think I'll need to try adding that Abilify to my Lamictal dose. Though I am noticing I am not crying or just burst into tears anymore practicly, I do hate this "manic" stuff, cus it only makes me edgy and confused about my emotions. Like either I have none or they are misleading.

I hope someone will comment on my last post. Once again I thank you all for your support and care.

Big hug**