I have one of those problems only people with BPD would consider a problem.
I recently had a huge succes and right now I get a lot of recognition for it.
Instead of feeling happy however I feel completely ****ed up and it's too overwhelming.

I feel like I don't own the succes, it's not mine and that all these people who are congragulating me will soon find out they made a huge mistake, or will have high expectations and they will see sooner or later that I'm a fraud.
I feel even more alone then at other times because especially now all my friends and family expect me to be happy and joyfull and full of energy while I just want to climb under a rock and dissapear.

I should be working on my next project but I don't want to, I want to drink and lose myself and not think about it at all, because this all makes me so insecure, cause I don't feel any different then I did before, only more people are looking at me now. I just can't handle it. Brings out all the crazy :-).